"And I know I’m weakI know I’m unworthyTo call upon Your nameBut because of graceBecause of Your mercyI stand here unashamed"From In my brokenness complete
Very motivated to blog thanks to Cheryl. Haha. I can totally imagining her talking when I read the blog post.
Anyway, had quite a depressing day today. Didn't know why, but from the beginning of the day, I was already feeling rather not at peace, in some sense, like, there was something bothering me. Anyway, basically felt quite sensitive to everything around me and rather emo by the end of the day. But I read Cheryl's blog, and also remembering the passage from Romans that I read last night (Romans 8: 28-39), I felt rather comforted and affirmed (yup so I'm feeling better now).
A lot of times, I guess we all will feel like some sort of failure. Failure to be a good Christian, failure to do well in our studies, failure to be like Jesus. Been feeling very sinful these few days, like, perhaps a sudden realization and exposure to all my sins. Just like how Adam and Eve suddenly realised they were not wearing any clothes after eating the forbidden fruit. I felt like a complete failure, but then, in Romans 8 it says that it is our sinful nature that causes us to sin, even though we deep down inside we want to do good (because of the Holy Spirit inside us I guess). And sometimes the bad triumphs over the good in us. That's why we must surrender control to God so that the Holy Spirit can rule in us and help us not to sin. Anyway, also reminded that it is not by our performance that we are good Christians, persay, but rather by God's grace, we just are, blameless and righteous in His sight, because of Jesus' death on the cross. If this ain't enough, we must also remember that God will cause all things to work together for the good of those who love Him. Though we aren't made completely in the likeness of Jesus yet, and even if we are far from it, take heart, because God is molding us day by day, little by little. We may not be there yet, but each day we are one step closer.
I think God is really, really good, and He always will be, regardless of how we are, or how we feel. Let us not be taken in by Satan's lies, that we are failures, or that we are not good enough. Remember the power of the cross and Jesus' blood, how we are made good enough already, because of Jesus :)
